Today has literally been one of the worst days ever. First of all I stayed up ALL night studying for an in-class essay I had this morning. I went to bed around 5:30AM and had to wake up at 7:30AM. Doesn’t give me much sleep. Well I usually press the snooze button once or twice before getting up.
7AM rolls around and I press snooze. Afterward I honestly do not remember how many times I pressed snooze… if I even pressed it after ward. I completely passed out and went into a deep deep sleep. I ended up waking up just as my class was starting! OMG. PANIC! I rushed to get dressed and ran out the door and sped to campus. I was going about 60-70MPH on 45MPH roads. Not to mention I had no gas. My little arrow thing was BELOW the orange danger zone. LOL! I have no idea how my car didn’t stop in the middle of the road.
Anyway, I didn’t end up making it to class. I got to campus about 20min before the period was supposed to end and was just bawling my eyes out I couldn’t walk inside to speak with my professor. This was a mandatory essay that cannot be made up. At least that’s what the syllabus says. I cannot afford to miss this essay because one of my other essays is already late. I’m hoping my professor will understand my situation. Basically within one month 3 immediate family members ended up being hospitalized week after week. AND my dog was going to be put to sleep on top of that.
I am so emotionally stressed out and drained it’s not even funny. If my professor doesn’t understand that then I’m pretty much screwed and going to fail the class even though I’ve gotten A’s on all my other assignments. But because of these two essays I’m screwed. ANDDDD I think I’ve missed my 5th class. Which drops me by another full letter grade.
Just fuck my life. I’m screwed either way. =[ I have to email her in the morning. I don’t even know what kind of reaction to expect from her. But I plan on explaining my situation very very clearly. I don’t want to get into any more details about my personal life because I’m just not that kind of person who does that. But that’s a little gist of what’s going on.
I’m going to be taking 2-3 weeks off from the net starting Monday so that I can focus on the end of the semester and catch up on any missed work. I have a 10-page paper to write this weekend also. FUNFUN. Ugh. I can’t wait until college is over with seriously. It’s killing me.
So of all days to be late, luck turns against me and choose this day. But wait it gets better…. today I noticed my glove compartment had some papers sticking out, and my registration booklet was on the ground. I was like wtf… and opened it. And some douche bag stole my GPS!!! I seriously can’t live without a GPS. It’s a total life saver. Why would someone do that? I can’t believe it. =[ I reported it to my college but I doubt they’ll be able to do anything about it.
This week has been such shit. I just want to crawl in a hole and live like a hermit. ROFL. Well… it was nice writing it out.
- Have you suffered any mental breakdowns yet? If so, how many? And what made you go over the edge?
- What do you do to help yourself cope with before overly-stressed?
- What are you going to be doing for Thanksgiving?
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Yeah…. lots of new content. I needed to distract my mind. -sigh- I really hope things work out for me. I have a gut feeling they won’t though. =[ FML.
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Oh lordie – that has gots to be the worst of the worst hun…I am soooo sorry to hear you went thru such a thing – I do hope ya professor eases up on you and go easy on you – gives you an extension cuz you sure sound like you need a break…
As for the stolen GPS – do you know who stole it or have an idea of who would do such a thing? Cause damn! WTF?! What the hell kinda security does ya college campus have and how low can you be to do such a thing? That is just wrong on so many levels..
Do not worry hun am sure things will make a turn for the better am sure of it…yah if I was in your position I would be taking a break from the net to focus on my school studies too…I wish I had done that but my dumb butt got kick outta college but at the time I was like “I DON’T GIVE A FLYING F**K” I was in a bad place in my life at the time – I wish I had not let such a golden opportunity slip thru my hands…as if I hadn’t I be in a better place in my life now…
Do not give up hun – as hard and rough as life may get for you even when you are in college, don’t throw in the towel…stick to it and stay strong…show you can handle it as a degree can go a very long way in this rough world – trust me I speak from experience as I don’t have a degree and can’t even get a damn good job…
You think ya life is hard now when you are in college – try getting kicked outta college and trying to find a good job without a college degree – that is far more worst. So, don’t give up hun- stay strong as the rewards of graduating from college can be so beneficial to you in the long run…esp careerwise and having a good job or a degree to fall back on when shit get rough in life after college…you can move anywhere and with a degree – get a job almost anywhere…as that degree will show that you are able to do anything in your field of studies and you worked your ass off for it…
Besides I think with a degree you can get further than actual experience…as I think most employers look more at your degree status than your actual experience level. SO, stay strong hun and don’t let the rough college life beat you down – show you can do it…as I know you can…*warm hugz*
1. I’m pretty sure I have many times. I couldn’t even get into what caused them without writing a novel, so I won’t go there. I’ll just leave it at having many breakdowns.
2. If I’m lucky, I let out the stress at shows in the moshpits. It tends to help. If I don’t have the lucky of going to one, I sit myself down & write. I put myself in a conscious daydream land to get away and let out my feelings.
3. We usually have Thanksgiving at my house, but my mom hurt her knee pretty bad… So we can’t tidy up the house or have it at my house… So it’s going to be at another family member’s house. I guess it works. It’s going to feel pretty freakin’ weird having Thanksgiving somewhere else. >_>
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I’m sorry your going through some rough times like that
I hope your teacher understands, if he doesn’t, then he/she has no heart! You’ll get through this! What are you studying in?
I’m so sorry about your dog
I know what it’s like to lose an animal like that and it’s really not fun.
Awh, sounds like life’s got you down. I find remaining optimistic always helps. Even optimists aren’t always happy, but they know they will be soon
* Have you suffered any mental breakdowns yet? If so, how many? And what made you go over the edge?
Hmm, I’d say about three. The first one was a few years back, my situation wasn’t even terrible, I was just emotionally drained. More recently, after my 19 year old cousin commit suicide on 8/24/09 five days before warped tour (what I had been looking forward to all summer) and ten days before school, I had a total breakdown. And last month I had one when my baby cousin died ten days after birth, my grades were failing, my parents marriage was failing, my dad lost our home because of his gambling addiction, my mom’s manic depressive behavior was really hurting me, and somebody stole my cell phone. So yeah, I guess what made me go over the edge was the overwhelming part of everything, and I felt like I had lost control, you know?
* What do you do to help yourself cope with before overly-stressed?
When I was stressed, I’d sing, write, listen to music, watch movies, sometimes make myself listen to something really sad, or watch a really depressing movie to make myself cry if I was too beaten up to even cry over what I was sad about. Or watch the sunrise/sunset. Anything to take my mind off of everything, and relax me.
* What are you going to be doing for Thanksgiving?
Thanksgiving? I don’t know :/ I’m in the process of packing, even though I have no idea where we’re moving yet, and we really don’t have time for Thanksgiving this year, so I don’t know.
wow lana i really hope things get better for you. i know how it is to have things just keep going wrong over and over
and i’ve been in that crazy sittuation where you are supposed to be there write something or whatever and can’t make it up. i actually ended up freaking quitting a class because of that, and i couldnt even make and incomplete i made an F and boy it sucks
i hope your GPS gets found…
That sounds rubbish, I hope things start looking up for you. I’m sure your proffesser will understand… well unless they’re not human… haha.
* Have you suffered any mental breakdowns yet? If so, how many? And what made you go over the edge? Far too many to say im ony 18. Lots of things have made me tip, just generally things that make people stressed, especially money issues.
ha
It’s a shame because it’s kinda like a second Christmas.. before Christmas haha. & I love Turkey… so not cool that we don’t have that over here :’( I love Christmas dinner.
* What do you do to help yourself cope with before overly-stressed? Watch a film that makes me cry
* What are you going to be doing for Thanksgiving? We don’t celebrate it over in Engaland unfortunatly.